Breakers Origin

Over the next 4 days, I am going to take a cd that has really been a huge blessing to me, and share the 4 spoken tracks. The cd is entitled Breaker by For Today, be warned it is a very heavy cd, lots of screamo and hard rock in it, but it is amazing. It shares the story of each of us, crafted into a character named Breaker. I want to share my thoughts about this, about how I am Breaker. The first post is called Breakers Origin

Origin

Fear,
Pain,
Confusion,
Rejection,
Powerless,
Helplessness,
How can I break this cycle of
hopelessness when I’m broken soaked in the spirit of anger.
With the roots of bitterness
rooted in the marrow of my bones,
flourishing through my soul,
oh my soul… 

wow, I cant help but to see me in every single word. how often did I find myself shaking in fear? or writhing in pain? or feeling confused or rejected? or feeling like I cant do anything right? or feeling like I am beyond the grasp of those who want to help? let me tell you what, I have felt all of those during the last 2 months. I screamed to God, how can I break this cycle of hopelessness? how can I break this feeling of not feeling like I am good enough or that I am worth anything? to be honest I have felt like I was not worth anyone's time or trouble. I didn't. but through the grace of an almighty, holy, righteous, awesome, powerful, magnificent God, He allowed those who really love me to gather around me. He brought people, who when this storm broke, I didn't even know, to me, just to love on me. that astounds me.

lets reflect for a second, how often do you find yourself becoming Breaker? how often do you just let yourself wallow when storms hit. I think the answer comes in the last few lines, but especially when it says "rooted in the marrow of my bones, flourishing through my soul". we have allowed Satan to lie to us, and slap us around with thoughts of insecurity, hopelessness, fear, pain, confusion, rejection, etc etc. think about it, how often do we just crumble because we know no other way? the glory of it is that Christ came to save us from that, but that comes in the third post, for we must first realize how broken we are, we must go to a valley to be able to look up.